Wednesday, August 10, 2011

Live a quiet peaceful life, or a life full of fame, and drugs?

Hi, im 19 years old and from an early age ive always wanted to be something special, somebody to be respected, somebody to do something for the world etc etc. In my youth ive have always been dominate, becoming quite popular and getting alot of girls, especially during my teenage years. However, in the last few years recently, my family have become very aesthetic, and seem to want to live the quiet life. The fact that my family members are much older than me, with my oldest sibling being 36, they have already claimed to have lived the fast life, (which i have witnessed from photographs and videos) and they now wish to live a more peaceful life. However i feel as though i am just approaching my heights in life, and want to live the fast life, however, theres alot of pressure from my family to follow them (with me being the youngest and all). So basically in the last few years ive been following my familys views but i am finding it very difficult to live this 'peaceful life' as my hormones are kicking in, in recent times, i feel like making the most of my youth and i dont want to live with regret when im older. But the issue is, the fact ive always wanted to achieve greatness, i dont know whether to follow the crowd (which i have been doing alot when i was younger, like getting girls and fighting/drinking etc etc) or be unique like my family, and living a more quieter life searching for knowledge and becoming popular/respected through my intellect (which is supposedly seen as being more respected in my familys society). I dont want to be the average joe, you know? so what path should i choose?? Becoming a popular figure in society of today (with no morals lol), or becoming a popular figure in society as a respected intelligent guy?? i hope this question makes sense as currently i am really confused on what path to take at this age, and the whatever path i take i want to achieve greatness in this role (just the way i am) .

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